I guess I will take the bait...
My intention to do some volunteering is not based on a lustful or sexual situation, but rather a general feeling of dissatisfaction in my current job that I have felt for a long time. I have spent the greater part of this year debating whether I want to continue in my career path or choose another one. Prior to visiting the DR, I had investigated other career possibilities in my country, such as RCMP, but in the end, decided that they were not exactly what I was looking for. I have also applied to begin a Master's degree, and am STILL waiting to hear if I have been accepted...which is very frustrating for me. So my plan to do something different was not born out of me visiting and becoming enamoured with the DR, although I do think that it is an amazing place in many ways...but I also know that it has its many difficulties and problems.
I had never really had a "calling" to do a specific job...I felt that I liked working with people, and specifically, adolescents, and so I thought that teaching was the right choice for me...and in many ways I feel that it is - but as the years go on and as I teach in different schools, I am finding it increasingly hard to reconcile being a part of a machine that promotes and enables such ignorant, (comparatively) spoiled and ungrateful young adults with an unfaltering false sense of entitlement. Particularly after having visited rural government-run Dominican schools, as well as a Haitian sugar cane village, my disillusionment with the North American youth that I am teaching - and the school system - has grown exponentially. To go from meeting children who have nothing and who are grateful for anything you can do for them, who want to learn, and who are excited about being given a pencil back to the verbally abusive, ungrateful and lazy attitudes of the students here has been very difficult for me to deal with...and I have continued to think about being able to do work that would actually benefit others, that would be more lasting and more rewarding than filling out referral after referral of misbehaviours, only for nothing to be done, and more and more students given the ability to hide behind their "labels" and excuses as to why they should get credit for doing nothing.
As a teacher of language, I am also intruiged and drawn to being able to learn a new language myself...I have already started to learn some Spanish, and am looking forward to being in an immersion setting, where I will really be able to get the full benefit. The cultural aspect is also very interesting to me, as I do like to travel and have been to different places around the world where the cultures are very different than my own.
My current plan is not to "give up" my life here, but to take a temporary leave of absence and do something meaningful, different, and beneficial to those who really need it. My job, family, and life will be here for me when I get back - I am not running away to the DR to "save the world" or chase a "sankie." I am at a cross-roads in my life and am in need of taking some time for myself and do some soul-searching and goodwill to others. I hope that this has been helpful to provide you with this "lady's" thoughts and insight.