time for total TRUTH about Felix
Well everyone, I have a confession to make:
The very negative reaction to all of this is somewhat understandable, due to the fact that I said I don't have his number or know where he works, etc, yet I am crazy about him, but there is much more to the story than I have told. Firstly, I have been involved with him for almost a year, therefore know his numbers, and everything else about him. We have kept what seemed to be an incredible realtionship, with lenghty conversations, 2-3 times a week, about our lives seperate and together, everything from weather, personal history, marriage, kids, family, and of course us. I have been there a few times, to POP, and we were either going to be together there or here. We had not fully decided. I swear to you, I had many doubts about this whole thing, but he did an amazing job of convincing me in every way, like you just would not believe, that he loved me like he's never loved before and ever will again, I mean it was deep, after this long a period of time, I'd eventually think, well, this is being carried on for too long to be in a such a lie, so he must be sincere.
Well I am sad to say, I was wrong. It does not matter how I found out, but I found out a few weeks ago, that he was carring on with another girl, for slightly less time than he and I were together. She was actually there with him in POP when we both found out and of course she too had no idea that I existed. Basically, he got caught, thank god! Now, I am sure some of you are laughing, thinking we are fools and possibly even deserve to be in this, takes two to merengue, yes, but after almost a year of hearing the depth of someone's love for you, you have to wonder if maybe that person is being sincere, right? If this was a week long holiday fling, trust me, I would not be writing this, it seemed to be much more than that.
I had heard so many stories of Dominican men that do this and was very liery about it, but believe me, please, there are sincerly some people out there that are very good at what they do and no matter how intelligent you are, when someone cries, beggs, and pleades with you to please believe in their love for you, as stupid as I feel know, I really, believed him and trust me you would have too! You can't live your life totally not trusting people, we had a year not a wknd to build something, and yes I was not there but 2 hour conversations on the phone 2-3 times a week, you begin to feel like you know the person, as you would if you were there and there is always that voice in your head, saying, you never know!!
Now the reason I began this quest to find Felix, is because, I wanted to know if there were others out there that he was doing this too. You may or may not agree, but the hurt I felt, finding all of this out, I just didn't want any other girl to go thru it, as per Felix. He does not deserve to feel love from one woman let alone many.
I owe nothing to anyone on this board, but I wanted to tell you all the truth, because I felt guilty for not being totally truthful, guess I am too "honest" for my own good! One day, it'll pay off!! ha ha
Take Care and guard your heart!
Bella