" if Belchis has gone back to Europe, what is she fishing for? ....another Fidel "
She is back to Europe because she was living and working there; in August she decided to move back to Santo (she left her daughter in Santo) and now she is back to take care of the shipping of the stuff she owns here; sell a house and ship and\or sell the furnitures.
"point is... the dead marriage... it's not your wife's fault but both your faults.
question: if you say it's so FLAT with her, why the need to remain married to her? why drag it? you make it sound like you don't love her... yet you say you want to love both women. "
It's both's fault, you are right...I love both, but two different kinds of love; my wife is the mother of my kids, I respect her, and we have to grow our kids, she is european with all the defects and the features of being that...Belchis is wild, hate or love, storm and quiet, never enough...
"dying to know though...
doesn't your young lover ever ask you for anything other the than the brief encounters (ie: marriage?????)"
Yes, several times...she wants me to go and live en el campo, and we are in these days talking about that. She said "I don't want you to break your family becuase of the kids, don't care about your wife but about your kids" later she said "Maybe I could bring your kids with me what you think? I would love them like if they were mine" but while telling me that her face was shadowed of sadness because she was desperate thinking this will never happen and I would never leave my family.
Now that she is leaving Europe forever sadness and crying it's an everyday issue...she is back for me. Now she is in her empty house waiting to be sold, with no job and basically running out of money soon, and telling me "come with me, just as you are, don't need your money, I will sell my house in Herrera (1.8 million pesos) and I will buy a smaller one in Moca where me, you my daughter and Breiling could live...we will set up some small business, yo tiengo mucha relaciones y un buen abogado, like giving small credits to people with guarantees...i did one to a family, they put their house like guarantee, 25.000 pesos and they give me back 2000 in interests every month, plus the capital at the end...we could work with Silo, he needs a bigger truck to bring platanos to S. Francisco and to develope his pigs rising business..."
Yes, she wants to stay with me.