Ever since I?ve returned from a vacation trip to the Dominican Republic this summer, I?ve been nothing but depressed and wanting to return. Yes I know this may be very common, because we all like to have vacation once in a while. But, I?ve considered all the options, and now its just making everything worse because I want to spend the rest of my life there.
My parents as well would enjoy a lifestyle over there, but it is practially impossible for us to leave, unless we miraculously happen to win the lottery. (which I doubt will ever happen) The economic situation is incredibly bad over there, (worse than the states) not to mention the government board is horrible as well. So unless we?re overflowing with money, I doubt that we would be able to live a comfortable life over there like we do here in the States.
But life is different over there. Beside the poverty and risky society that is lived over there, it is a completely different lifestyle, a completely different environment. In my opinion, people are friendlier, happier, and more easy going. The culture is completely different. For once in a while, I actually felt like I was living my life.
So now I?m back here in the States and I?ve been avoiding all my friends and just not wanting to do anything at all. Nothing here excites me like it does over there. My life over here is the exact opposite of how my life would be over there. And it depresses me time and time again when I think about it.
And reality is I?m not there. I?m here and it would suck if I don?t make the most of the time that I?m given. But when I?m old enough to establish my own life, I don?t want a future here. I want to finally be able to live the life I?ve been deprived of, because of economic status. So I?ve been thinking to attend college over there as soon as I graduate highschool.
But as obvious, I?m still very confused as to what I should do, which is why I need as much insight as possible. College over there MAY be cheaper, but it will be hard for me to work and pay it off by myself. If I were to stay here, there is a chance that I could get a scholarship, because I?m a dedicated honor student. On the other hand, if the scholorship does not completely pay off my college tuition, I would have to take a student loan which would require me to work my entire life just to pay it off, which clearly is not something I want to do. On any given case that my college tuition is the not a problem here, then I can always wait until I have a decent amount of money and then move there when I?m older (much older, probably) Which is the main factor as to why I?m so confused. What fun will it be when I?m old? I would very much love to enjoy the young years of my life in that type of happy environment, but know that it is most likely not going to happen.
And I?m very, extremely sorry for making you guys read this extremely long post, and know that I very much appreciate it for those of you that decide to help me out. I just need insight and advice from people with different views, as I?m very confused. Should I leave for college and take a risk in living a good life and making decent money, which may or may not work out? Or should I stay here in the states with the possibility of getting a scholarship and making decent enough money that I WILL live a good life over there, but when I?m much older?
Once again, I apologize for this lengthly post, and thank all of the ones who took the time to actually help out.
My parents as well would enjoy a lifestyle over there, but it is practially impossible for us to leave, unless we miraculously happen to win the lottery. (which I doubt will ever happen) The economic situation is incredibly bad over there, (worse than the states) not to mention the government board is horrible as well. So unless we?re overflowing with money, I doubt that we would be able to live a comfortable life over there like we do here in the States.
But life is different over there. Beside the poverty and risky society that is lived over there, it is a completely different lifestyle, a completely different environment. In my opinion, people are friendlier, happier, and more easy going. The culture is completely different. For once in a while, I actually felt like I was living my life.
So now I?m back here in the States and I?ve been avoiding all my friends and just not wanting to do anything at all. Nothing here excites me like it does over there. My life over here is the exact opposite of how my life would be over there. And it depresses me time and time again when I think about it.
And reality is I?m not there. I?m here and it would suck if I don?t make the most of the time that I?m given. But when I?m old enough to establish my own life, I don?t want a future here. I want to finally be able to live the life I?ve been deprived of, because of economic status. So I?ve been thinking to attend college over there as soon as I graduate highschool.
But as obvious, I?m still very confused as to what I should do, which is why I need as much insight as possible. College over there MAY be cheaper, but it will be hard for me to work and pay it off by myself. If I were to stay here, there is a chance that I could get a scholarship, because I?m a dedicated honor student. On the other hand, if the scholorship does not completely pay off my college tuition, I would have to take a student loan which would require me to work my entire life just to pay it off, which clearly is not something I want to do. On any given case that my college tuition is the not a problem here, then I can always wait until I have a decent amount of money and then move there when I?m older (much older, probably) Which is the main factor as to why I?m so confused. What fun will it be when I?m old? I would very much love to enjoy the young years of my life in that type of happy environment, but know that it is most likely not going to happen.
And I?m very, extremely sorry for making you guys read this extremely long post, and know that I very much appreciate it for those of you that decide to help me out. I just need insight and advice from people with different views, as I?m very confused. Should I leave for college and take a risk in living a good life and making decent money, which may or may not work out? Or should I stay here in the states with the possibility of getting a scholarship and making decent enough money that I WILL live a good life over there, but when I?m much older?
Once again, I apologize for this lengthly post, and thank all of the ones who took the time to actually help out.