Too Bad
You know all of you think I am stupid, and you have all the answers, well, I was just trying to get a little educated, and thought that maybe as mostly women talking to other women you might be a little understanding. To tell you the truth, I am too old to play the S__t with a bunch of ****'d of nothing better to do than gossip, throw slurs at each other and tell mean and hurtfil things to each other and about others. I am not happy with the situation that I have gotten into, and it is not because I have low self estem, am ugly or have no self worth. I feel very confident of myself, have many good qualities, and an not a fool. If I have mad poor choices than they are only mine to live with. I choose not to think that people are all out to use and abuse. I still have faith in people, and I am sure, no I know that I have also played the game a few times myself, for what ever reason that I may have had at the time. We all have played crappy little games with someone of the opposit sex, or the same sex, which ever our preferance may be. So we should all examine our own moral characters and stop this little Bitch Fest. I can believe I had fun, and did what ever I did with who ever and only opened up a can of worms with my stupid curiosity. I never thought Alexandro was anything more or less than all of us have either been or have at least thought about doing. Some are just better at it than others. I have told him many times to his face that he is a very well groomed Gigilo, and could make many women happy, if even for a little while. We all do not know what goes on in others heads or hearts, or have a right to judge so harshly. I am not condoning nor am I condeming. We have all hurt, used or degraded someone at sometime in our lives.....we are all adults and need to start taking responsibilities for our own actions right or wrong, good or bad. And after reading some of the crap you write to and about one another, I'm glad to say KISS OFF.......and when you are all perfect, than point a finger. I have not been used by Alex any more than he has been used by me, its just that it may not have the same stigma placed upon it because nobody has called me a slut, now tell me where the difference is at. Dont we all use each oither in some way. We are all humans and greedy by nature. I am not sorry, nor do I regret meeting alex, and thanks to all the man slamming and all the name calling you have showed me that nobody here is any better than the next. If I slept with him, I did so as a woman with the freedom of choice, not out of despiration. and as a Matter of fact, just to set the record straight, I came onto him cause I wanted to F___k him, so I guess I was the one you should point a finger at. And i am not ashamed. I knew what I wanted and if he gave it to me than whats the problem, and besides, I never once said I slept with him, or gave him money. Pay Attention, or have all of you been left high and dry ? broken hearted and financially devistated. Only one person really cared about what I really was after and bothered to get off their soap box long enought to give a S__t.
Take care, and learn to except responsibility for your own actions. Evey Sankie eventually wakes up alone, or lives with the consiquences of his / her own actions. We only face ourselves each day.