I know you are just asking for thoughts and opinions. You are unhappy and it is wearing you down. The apartment and PN are issues that faced you when you came here but now you see and feel them more. No matter where you go in this country that will not change. Friends make a big difference. I get the impression that there is places to met up with other expats on the North Coast, not sure about here on the East Coast or in SD. Sometimes just a face to face chat can make a big difference. If you are really ready to pack it all in, then nothing we say with rose coloured glasses should change that.