Ok, sorry for the details about the south side of my body...and furthermore that's not the main issue, the main reason why I'm with this woman. Yes, I met her in 97 during a Salsa y Merengue Festival in Europe...she was with three other girls, partying and talking very loud. In a few days we were...sleeping together, waking up very very late in the morning, sometimes in the afternoon, in every place we were able to find. At the beginning we were lying each othere "Yo soy sola aqui, no tiengo hombres"...I told here I was married after a little while, because the hurricane was so strong, and I told here I had no childs.
After a month she told me she was divorced from a Dominican guy, mother of Mariana, and now married again with another guy, but they were in bad waters and she was sharing an apartment with "una prima mia" I told her my truth.
Now it's more about love and living with her; it's about the different world I discovered; it's about all the thinghs that I have. I have everything but I feel empty, I need more and more...I have nothing at the end. Now I know I don't need all the thinghs, just a few of them, now I know that the ones I believe are dirty and poor have everything. They are able to resist and to survive, every day, and they live! they live and I'm the one which survive his job every day, and the more I make the more I need.
Now I smile thinking about how stupid I was. And how lucky I've been in meeting her.
Tanning; I simply don't go to the beach; sometimes to the river and when I walk under the sun I wear a big cap and long sleeves tee-shirts.
Expenses; I have my own account, and the expenses are very limited...I live by her home, buy some food and some car renting but it's very cheap if you have very basic needs...
Hopeless: I said hopeless with an "?"....I need to make a choice and all your comments are helping, really